We function so very hard at getting “greater people”, at increasing better intelligence and more skills. We want to be liked more and be much more popular. The whole self-help business is dedicated to increasing the home to help you develop into a greater you. That is yet another trick we secretly enjoy on ourselves, thinking we have to help keep spinning our wheels trying to become better. That self-improvement sport is yet another secret we can to understand to let it go of. It’s really relaxing when you start to understand that you may not need to become any benefit than you presently are. You had been made perfect. It is maybe not through self-improvement that you discover peace but through self-acceptance.
As I worked with A Course in Wonders, I really could note that there was a fear of heavenly enjoy in my own mind. I recognized this is the ego’s anxiety about losing itself. The vanity is afraid to be exposed and being viewed as a smoke of nothingness. That’s driving a car of intimacy. We talk about this fear in associations, which may acim be projected as concern with sexual closeness, but it is really an anxiety about falling our personality, our mask of individuality. It’s worries of getting taken away by a fantastic enjoy, a love so powerful that nothing people can also imagine anything as glorious and effective!
For me, those will be the large secrets, because it does not start with this particular good awareness. It generally begins with emotion like you’ve performed something amiss, whether you have masturbated, stolen something, mistreated some body, or there’s anything in your mind that you have judged as so hideous that that you don’t even need to manage it, you just want to forget about it and drive it out of awareness.
Underneath all those memories and thoughts, is the belief that people are separated. Here is the “secret” we hide. It is actually an difficult belief, but we feel that it is correct; We have judged it as horrific and have sent it out of awareness. All unconscious guilt arises from that opinion in separation. And as you actually give your self to the miracle, you are feeling dozens of hidden beliefs and techniques are increasingly being rinsed out and you finally experience this hidden opinion in divorce!